I forgive. I don’t forget.
I give the benefit of the doubt. I judge.
I feel compassion. I project contempt.
I stand up for those that can’t do it for themselves. I wonder why you’re so lazy that you can’t even walk down the down escalator. Not up. Down.
I try. I try, again. And then, I try some more. [It’s because I fail at this, a lot.]
I Love. I don’t love.
Does anyone even read this anymore?
Why do I bother?
It seems like every step forward is met with four in the opposite direction. And, the more opportunities I see where those steps forward should be, the more steps I take in reverse.
So, why do I bother?
I bother because, before the “one step forward in exchange for four steps back”, I wasn’t taking any steps forward. They were all in the wrong direction.
I bother because it’s worth it even though there are lots of times where it seems like it’s not. And, it’s hard. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life.
Have you ever referred to something as the “best in your life”, or “the funniest in your life”, or the “whatever it is in your life”? Have you ever thought, not about whatever the “whatever” is, but about what your life actually is?
What I thought was life before, wasn’t. It was “doing this” and “doing that” to get to some goal or achievement. When you truly find life, there are no more goals or achievements. Life is the goal. Life is the achievement. You’ve got it already. There’s nothing you need to earn.
Love is life. Life is Love.
You can choose to have an “easy”, potentially fulfilling life or you can choose to have a challenging assuredly fulfilling life. And yes, when I say “challenging”, I mean hard. But, it doesn’t stay that way. It starts that way; it doesn’t finish that way.
Choosing Love won’t make you superhuman. Choosing Love is like going for that first spring run after the snow has melted; it sucks, it’s slow, your lungs burn, your muscles seize and there’s going to be hell to pay tomorrow. But, it gets easier. Slowly, if you stay the course, it gets easier.
Love asks a lot. Or, it seems like a lot. But, that’s only because we’re so unfamiliar with how much simplicity it represents. Love will make you look at everything that is and isn’t Love in your life. Love only wants Love. And, if you want to be Love, you have to change what isn’t. Tough.
So, what’s the alternative? Go back to “doing this” and “doing that”? You could. Or, actually, could you? Even if you’re not that far, you’re this far. Can you go back? Do you want to go back? Why not keep going? There’s nothing to lose and everything to Love.
be Love.
You bother because there is at least one person will read your post and write you back. You don’t have the right to be negative or give it up because you have no idea what your words, your love and your heart have positively affected others. I will permanently give you up if you stop being positive. Like I said before, the one who really loves you won’t give you up easily no matter what or how that person feels. We are all humans and we experience different ups and downs in our life. Someone chooses to let it out, someone may not but getting over it by eating an ice cream. Someone may tell you face to face one thing, but deep down in that person’s heart, he/she doesn’t mean to give up on you. People are different and they reforms a lot day to day, but what doesn’t change is their heart. It doesn’t matter what they say, I have said many things in the past that have hurt so many people in my life that are important to me. I am just glad and I am lucky that most of them are still in my life, of course after I managed to keep them. Anyways, keep on writing and keep on being you, I only like you and support you as long as you are you. There are millions of things are different from day to day, but our heart won’t change. All right, be bright and be love. One more thing, check out this song if you like, may cheer you up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DlXk1v8pXak
I will not give up, but when we feel like we want to, it’s important to remember that being who you are is worth it. Being Love, is worth it. I experience this emotion often; the one of “giving up” and “why bother”. But, it’s up to me to know that it is worth it. The alternative, like you mentioned, would be to not really be who who you are. You will never have the ability to give up on your Heart because your Heart will never give up on you.
be Love.
It’s a very nice song. She is a wonderful singer. Thank you. 🙂