It seems like there can be a lot of tough decisions to make when it comes understanding who you are. Or, even more so, who you want to be. I’d confidently guess, on enough occasions, it probably seems as though you don’t have a decision to make, at all. Like, that’s just the way things are, right? To offer zero guidance on that; yup. And, also, nope.
The thing about tough decisions, like genuinely legitimate tough decisions, is that they’re for your benefit. They’re not here to make your life miserable. It may seem that way, like your life is being ruined, but it’s not the case. I promise. Anything that’s truly here for you in life, is from a place of Love. It can beat you up and beat you down. It can drag you through the mud and make you feel like you’re drowning. The reason it causes us pain is because we’re all still learning to understand how it works. We’re all still trying to understand who we really are.
Tough decisions usually fall into two categories; the ones you make up and the ones that make you up. The ones you make up; that’s the needless drama in your life. That’s the bullshit, the “he said, she said”, the blah, blah, blah, etc. The ones that make you up; those are the ones that spur your growth. The ones that make you really cry and really smile and really challenge what you believe or may have believed about who you are. Those are the ones that contribute to your evolution.
Contributing to your evolution is no easy task. Much of what you’ve known of yourself is that of this physical body you’re borrowing, not of the truly infinite power you are. And, that’s why it’s going to be tough. But, you’ll get there. The decisions you make will mean change; it will mean being scared. It will mean you may not go to bed the same person as when you woke up that day. You may, certainly, have to cut ties, quit jobs, upset people, upset yourself, any and all challenges may face you; they will be your own uncharted waters and no one else’s. But, rest assured, we’ll all eventually be chasing the horizon.
I’ve thought about the alternative; I’ve thought about what it used to be like. And, I don’t think you can go back. I don’t think you can abandon ship when you’re on uncharted waters and expect to be okay. It may seem better; as though you’ve been able to shed the self-responsibility of personal evolution, but it’s not. After a short while overboard, the realization is that you need to stop treading water and swim.
Not everything you do in life needs to be meaningful. But, the reason you’re here is because you are meaningful. Love doesn’t cause us the hurt we experience, our misunderstanding is what causes it. Love is the meaning. Love is your meaning. You can make the tough decisions and be okay. You can be “wrong” and be okay. All you need to do is set your course for the horizon. You don’t have to be precise, it’s as far as the eye can see.
Be Love.
