I want to talk about Love….big surprise.
I don’t find myself writing so much these days. Or, in fact, for the last year or so. And, truthfully, nothing to do with how all of our lives have changed. It’s more so that I hadn’t been giving myself the opportunity (foreshadowing) to be in a space where it felt like there was something to write about. But, calling on your right brain to chip in, every now and again, is not unlike anything else we do. It takes intention, it takes a bit of planning, it takes some motivation, it takes getting yourself into the right environment and it takes consistency. And, even then – sometimes, you just don’t feel it.
A lot of people have had any number of struggles throughout the past twelve months; it’s been very real. We are all the same in this regard, but also different. I’m too, part of this. That all being said, I’ve found the last six months to have been very positive and very productive from a personal growth perspective even though there was every reason for it not to be. But, I wasn’t able to see this higher perspective right out of the gate. There was a lot for me to navigate and figure out in the first six months of the aforementioned last twelve – both specific to me personally and similar to what we were all attempting to become acclimatized to.
As time went on, cliché as seems, I started being able to see how the challenges could possibly be opportunities in disguise. It’s not an easy process – to decide to reprogram how perspective instinctually responds to tough situations. The first hurdle is really just accepting the fact that most, if not all, challenges are wearing disguises. It’s how they deceive. The disguises are so good, in every aspect and detail, that we don’t seem to even know we have the choice to accept them as the truth or not. But, we do. If we’re playing spiritual catch-phrase bingo, it’s the mantra that says, ‘you’re the one who gets to choose your reality’.
And so, as time passed on in this new social environment, I started seeing that it wasn’t that I was previously “living my life in the fast lane”, as they say, and was now forced to slow everything down. It’s that I came to realize I may have not really been living it in a lane, at all.
Although, I’d been fortunate enough to not have been foundationally impacted by how life changed altogether, it still made me take stock of the situation. Should I be impacted by this? Did I have to be impacted by this? Was there a different way to think about it all? What I didn’t gather at the time of asking these questions was that I was tunnel vision-ing them to only what was happening in life right at that moment. But, these are questions that are always relevant, at any point in time, for any situation.
It made me think that I had to decide that it was possible to have a perspective whereby challenges could take on the complexion of opportunities. It seemed….logical? So, that was my decision – challenges can actually be opportunities. Don’t get me wrong, I just rolled my own eyes while typing that. It still has that effect, a little bit. It just seems like it’s one of those things you’re supposed to say and think but it’s actually fraught with skepticism.
What happens, though, is that the introduction of the possibility becomes the catalyst for your thinking to begin to shift. It becomes more and more apparent that while it seems as though you’re limited in your choices, you actually are. Read again. Not a typo. You ARE limited in your choices. There are two. Higher perspective or lower perspective. Higher vibration or lower vibration. Higher consciousness or lower consciousness. Take your pick as to what you want to call it.
So, I mentioned that I wanted to talk about Love. There’s a tie in, here. I started making higher perspective choices. More than ever before. And, while they’re simple in concept, they’re definitely not always easy. What does happen, though, is the more of those decisions you make, the more of those decisions you make – snowball down a mountain. Momentum starts helping out a lot.
Where this all led me to realize, which I think I’m still trying to exactly believe, is that I think I started feeling what’s they call “self-Love”. (This one is also somewhere on your spiritual catch-phrase bingo card and can come with over emphasized air quotes and possibly an eyeroll, itself.) But, you know something? It’s a thing. Can I explain it? Truthfully, I’m not sure I can. I think that’s why self-Love is such a tough concept to get a hold of. There is no definition. There is no illustration. There’s no “click on the link down below”. I don’t know? Maybe you just feel it when you do? And, maybe, even though you feel it, you’re still unsure because it’s so unfamiliar?
But, when it happens, I think you know – somewhere inside. You feel a greater alignment and draw towards higher perspective. You feel more balance. More peaceful. You also feel where you might be stuck. And, places inside that maybe need clearing out. Maybe those are the places that need the most self-love?
The reason all of this has come up is because I was compelled toward doing some “emotional housekeeping” (that’s under the ‘O’ on your bingo card, for “Ok, already, with the joke”) over the weekend. While I’ll leave the details out as to what that entailed, the nutshell of it is a mix of silent reflection, meditation, evening walks under the stars and asking some real questions. With the intention of getting some real answers. While I can’t say for sure, I think the decision to do so was a product of feeling this greater alignment and higher perspective. It seems to make sense that the greater amount of time you spend in the space above your physical existence, the greater the imbalances become perceptible. And, as such, the greater the pull to level them out and the greater the discomfort when you don’t. A word of positive caution; you will need a lot courage to face the fear that is present within the imbalances. I think, to really honour self-love, the fear has to be brought out.
Know that the Universe isn’t made up of doors and windows as some philosophies might have you believe. There is nothing that gets opened or closed regardless of what it seems like. It’s paths. Your Universe is made up of paths. These paths are wide, narrow, long, short, straight, winding, scenic and desolate. They run parallel, intersect and intertwine with each other. And, even though there’s an infinite number of these paths, you get two options. Choose one or stand there.
Be Love.
